China blue and snowy saucers On the old oak table where you once sat Alone and plaintive, dusty I haven’t had the heart to move them yet There’s to much of your spirit Still in the house It seems wrong to clear it away When you’re supposed to come back And drink your tea.
I went through your desk, though It was necessary. You never were organized And I found myself buried in mountains Of old bills and notes and wishes And by the time I found the will Paper birds had roosted all about the room Their inked markings unreadable Thanks to the flapping of their wings.
Your sketchbook I left by our bedside Your notebook and Hemingway Rest under the alarm clock That will never wake you again Though it rings its mournful, piercing wail At 6:00 every morning It scared me, the day after the funeral I hadn’t slept all night, screamed, Clutched your pillow And threw mine at the foot of the bed, The Phantom shadows of dreams disappearing In the light of a grey morning.