I’m taller than her now. I joke and say I’m growing Up and away from her but She doesn’t laugh. Because I am: horizontally. Plants grow toward the Light and my movement Is matricidal as the womb, The matrix. That’s what really Makes me sick.
I’m taller than her now. And smarter, and stronger. And saner, if that, colder. But still I’m smaller, or When I say good night And watch her Watch me shut the door. I feel my angles, rounded Corners. But I really don’t Know who I am.
I’m not a boy and yet I Must be. Not a man though I should be. What she sees, Or what I think she sees, Might take my breath away. That’s why I thank god for Making humans irreflective. If I could see (She sees herself In me, her father too.) I’d Oedipus my eyes out.