I stop trying when I feel I am not wanted anymore
After several attempts to show you my love
After several attempts to reach out to you
I try to keep my ego away
And keep trying to hold on
Hold on to what we had/have
But now,  Its futile
I have to stop trying.

I may feel hurt walking away
I may feel hurt trying so hard to control myself
I may shed tears
I may take it out on other people
I may hate myself for being a fool
Over and over again
I may write and write about it
Either way,  I have decided
I have to stop.
This has to stop.

I have been hurt way too many times.
I can't keep doing this to myself
I ought to love me
I ought to put me first
But I keep putting you first
Over and over,  
Even when I know you don't deserve it. Even when I know you don't love me as much
Even when I know what you think of me
Even when you don't reach out to me
Unless I do it first.  
And the one word-one sentence replies I get
Like you don't feel like it
Like I am bothering you
Like I am wasting your time.
Sorry,  love
I won't do that anymore.
I won't look for you
I won't text you
I won't call you
I won't love you anymore
But then again,  I won't hate you,  
That would be so much burden to carry.  
Goodbye.