I am in tears I am breaking so why is there no sadness have I become so numb to the pain or have I finally gone cold hope is in my life so why am I stricken with fear there is love in my world so why can't I smile I am confused upon this life but have never felt more aware of it I am truly alive am I right what is this you speak to me I'm not alive this ain't right I reach for your hand to guide me to the greener side and I can see the deception in your eyes as I run from it I keep my legs going to realize I am stuck in place and as I bat away your kindness and refuse the decitful eyes I am truly unmoving  you can take me away from my pain I give up oh there it is the skeleton of myself how warming the past is I need this thank you oh death for I am now happy in this life