a houseplant is starting to grow a new leaf, so i know an old leaf is about to die. little triangle corners from packets torn open, all over my kitchen counter. bookmarks in books i haven't read in ages. tiny scars on my hands from playing the ukulele. alarms i had set for things, that don't make sense anymore. the yellowing old paper of my birth certificate. amazon wish-list of things i don't really need. the artist and the writer who got married, not for the idea of romance but for all the right reasons. the birthdays i am forever forgetting. a friend's coffee mug from Archies, that reminds me of a childhood memory i thought i had lost. the smell of inspiration is of bonfire and bakeries. watching Ps I Love You only to cry. walking; stopping at the teashop on the way home. struggling to be honest. writing a list of little thoughts, memories and details from a life.