your lip jutting out is like a shard of broken glass and I know you’d just stitch me back up if I tried but I don’t think you’re very amenable to being kissed; not now, anyway. not here, you’d say. all I've ever wanted was to put my mouth on you, baby, taste the salt of your skin like natural protection against your demons and mine and all the others in between. you think you've seen them all but believe me, I'm older, I'm wiser, handsomer too but you don’t see me bragging about it and I've seen what’s down there. I tried to protect you for as long as I could but we have seen the end of night in the complete dark together. I almost miss that dark, the obscurity where you’d admit you didn't always have to be so **** conscious and we slipped back to raw instinct and raw feeling and I've still got the feel of your skin under my fingertips and between my palms and my hands have been covered with you for years, now. I don’t dare to breathe on them lest the last of your DNA slip through my fingers - but it was probably too good for me, anyway. your genes and your jeans fit you beautifully and I'm like a ****** hopped up on the memory of when I raked my nails down your back and though the lines have faded I will always reopen those wounds. I will never leave you more whole than I. we have broken every rule and we have broken each other, and I wonder why anyone would settle for any less than this; because an empty passengers seat is the loneliest place I've seen in the continental united states and that’s counting the grand canyon, baby. I have stood above that yawning tear in the ground and tossed my voice into it, practising idiocy and ventriloquism and other interchangeable words like that and like a man carved from stone I stood there, watching, listening, waiting with a patience borne of desperation, but after a few thousand lungfuls of broken glass there was no reply and I left. I pulled your favourite move and I left, alone. so what do we have now? a car, the change in our pockets and each other? it sounds romantic as **** but you've always been the poet here. I'm just the guy who sits behind this frozen wheel and drives because it’s easier than warming my hands and when I tear your heart out the cold numbs your chest so you can’t even feel it. have you ever felt anything? have you felt me, baby? has this whole ******* existence of mine been in vain? because your lip jutting out is like a shard of broken glass and I've got the oddest premonition that it can slice me to ribbons if you would just move your head and look at me. baby, please. look at me. let me know I'm alive so I can die for you.