They watch me Endlessly As if the the bars on the door will suddenly dissipate due to my extreme will power for them to vanish I stare back at them wondering Am I a problem to them or a person? Someone who is invading their time and space Or a human being with feelings and trauma who needs help They treat me like the former I want to tell them that it doesn't matter That they can treat me however they choose But the words never come out The constant drug cloud I am under suffocates anything that dares to cross my lips Why can't I say that I'm not here anymore That I don't know who I am anymore Why cant I say that all that's left in me is a built up scream that is struggling to get out