There comes a time when I just need to work on myself. There’s a hurricane raging in my head, constantly telling me to walk right through it, knowing I won’t get out alive. But then there’s another thought. The thought comes when I’m most comfy-alone. This thought is just as dangerous as the rest I don’t know why I have them- Well, actually, I do. It’s me wanting to give into that hurricane. It’s me telling the hurricane, that it needs to get closer so I won’t have a chance to run away The constant want to just walk right through and never get out As a human, my feelings aren’t normal I shouldn’t want these things to happen to me I should want a future But truly I don’t care. I don’t want to be a hotshot lawyer I don’t want to marry so young- I do the person I don’t want to have kids young But in our generation We are pushed. We are pushed to provide for the families we don’t have yet We are pushed to do better We are pushed to make the generations stronger and more advanced. This, is not living. This is being a robot. This is torture. This is not happiness. I strive for thought that maybe I could give my kids something I didn’t have Give my kids the money I didn’t have My thought are that my happiness doesn’t matter because I will never be happy again