Not for want of rain, no not why I give you my pain expecting this immolation to gain a self- in other words mine and not yours I wouldn't even want that, the declarative words chanted as my funeral pyre is pushed into the current of any river but especially the river of life no, not me, I am not that antique wife Dear sir, if you are blessed with luck and if time is your friend, when seconds count and especially at the end no one will hear my charges against you or wonder at my pointed burning finger as fire is overcome by water and all is right again