Hurt and scarred I ran to hide,
I know this hurt will not subside.
They left their mark and left it well,
And the less I try the more I dwell.
What's done is done and I should move on,
Looming in the shadows now that they're gone.
It seems like yesterday they turned and walked away,
But what they said and did with me would stay.
I thought that I had left them far behind,
I thought the deal was sealed and signed.
I thought with you I would move forward,
I thought with you I would feel empowered.
I feel so empty so cold and blank,
Almost like the ship that sank.
Shattered dreams a lonely wreck of love and time,
The punishment does not seem to fit the crime.
But still I stand alone or not,
Thankful for all that I've got.
Every night I shed a tear for what has passed,
An opportunity missed and never grasped.
My own stupid mistake no one else to blame,
Admitting my pain I feel no more shame.
Taming the beast of broken emotions,
Dealing with the past and growing frustrations.
I've no doubt that the person I knew is no more,
Changed like the line of the beaten shore.
Still I hold on with no explanation,
Still I hold on to the forgotten location.
Still I remember the way it had been,
Their face their smile the person I'd seen.
I don't know how they did this to me,
But my only wish is now to be free.
Free from the pain the want the need from it all,
But I guess that to give it all up is still my call.
Stuck on a person my heart will remain,
Until at long last myself I reclaim.