Dear girl who
I used to know,

Black-dress-blue-sweater-girl
Sad girl
Scared girl

Dear smart girl,

You knew all
Along
Didn’t you?

Five months ago
You knew
That letting go
And letting in
Would only let out
Everything that you
Should
Have let
Wither away

All those

Little green wisps
Of hope for
Life love laughter

You knew

They should have been
Buried inside your
Chest filled with hope
And a heart that still
Knew how to
Beat

Alone

You knew
All those

Little tendrils of light
Should have been
Cried out silently behind
A closed door

Dear girl who
I used to be,

Lonely girl
Cold girl
Wise girl

Dear strong girl,

You knew
You tried to

Warn me

Dear girl who
Screamed into pillows
After two weeks
Because she knew
That
She felt herself
Sliding helplessly
Into arms
That weren’t safe
Slipping away
With no grip
On reality,

You knew all
Along
Didn’t you?
You tried to

Warn me

Dear black-dress-blue-sweater, scared, sad, smart, unbroken girl…
Dear Me,

Dear Mind,

I’m so
Sorry
I never have
Known how to
Listen.

Please forgive me.

Yours truly,
                  
                                        Heart