behind that slammed door
hides the burdens of motherhood
the consistent feeling of failure
and the pressure from growing up too soon

behind that slammed door
lays the woman who did it all
...in her 20s
and became this emotional beast 20 years later

behind that slammed door
holds the secrets she’ll never tell
the pain she’s always felt
and the sorrow of living without purpose

behind that slammed door
anxiety and depression reside
little monsters that creep into your head
and ruin that ideal life

behind that slammed door
is the woman who raised me
who has belittled my insecurities
and who has trained me to give up

and behind that slammed door
oh, that cracked and ruined door
my mother lays awake
replaying every moment she’s ever thought