I am fat
Make one wrong move I am obese
Shoving healthy words down my windpipe
As I binge on my stress
As I eat unhealthy
As I wallow is self pity because
I am fat.

Nothing helps
Exercise becomes irrelevant as I feed into my desire to snack
I swallow my pride and just as I swallow the pills,
I eat.

Supplements of plenty
2
3
4
Pills a day
To feel better about myself
Like I am doing something
I am like a whale going for the smallest of things,
But bingeing

All I am is my desires and I cant help but feel that I,
Am not me

Dont pitty me, just hear my plea
My plea for help as I sink deep down in a hole
A hole full of darkness and fear and regret And

Past mistakes
Past comments
Because I am fat

Because I cant help but feel my desires to snack,
To eat

I become one with the pills as they attempt
To form my body
As I continue to mistreat it.

Cant take this anymore as I close the door on my emotions

Eating effortlessly binging on my own discomfort

Watching myself grow in the mirror I cry
And take it one more pill at a time

Given up on all hope of being healthy
Because I
Am fat