Forgiven, such a strange emotion.
Can I release the anger, the hurt?
Is it fair to give that back to the world, when it was all meant for me?
Can I just let it go.. let you go.. so you are forgiven?
Is trying futile?
Will I feel free after freeing my heart from the feelings you gave me?
So much pain; the confusion alone crushed me.
Why did I deserve the treatment I received from someone who was supposed to care so much?
Why am I still full of so many questions?
I miss the nights fireside, burning up all over even after I drifted away from the heat of the fire.
I miss the hot breath and the opened hearts.
I still feel the impact, the importance, of the secrets shared.
I long for the comfort of your understanding.
But forgiven?
It still hurts. I still ache.
I will hold this with me always, I will take the weight.
You are free.
You are forgiven.