You shatter my self-esteem like glass
You drift away from me like wind blown amongst ash
Wallowing in fear and shame
Drowning with a lack of confidence
Never trusting, always doubting
Never smiling, always sulking
Wishing for a good day
Hoping for a better day
Losing my way, pushed astray
Not knowing who I am
Never knowing what I will end up becoming
Looking ahead in the far distance...
Only a bleak future waits for me
Grey sullen days and the blackest nights
All alone, all on my own
Destined loneliness is my calling
Ever since birth I’ve been falling
Fallen and falling still a crooked path
Tumbling down endlessly
No helping or guiding hand can catch me
Nor point me towards salvation
I am merely cursed to exist
From the beginning and until the end...

Cody Shull, 2018