Most of the times I neglect the truth away. Never wanting to disturb the calm waters.
The coming of age is over, spoiled now that I have all the answers. It's all coffee in the kitchen with my feet tapping anxiously sitting and waiting for the dead working hours to move on its own, dragging me away from freedom.
I never get control of my life, honesty is a misunderstanding and depression is a misunderstanding, a misleading coping mechanism to slack a day or two in bed, reading books that I'll never finish, reading Bukowski poems that does nothing but make me embrace the most comfortable negativity there is.
Not doing anything at all, just waiting for nothing to happen until they move me on another spot that needs covering.
This individuality lacks the guts to move independently, lacks the guts to burn bridges in exchange for a better path, for a clearer space to breathe where my state of mind is not questioned, misunderstood or left untreated.
For ****'s sake, relatives, strangers, friends, lovers, corporations and unwanted entitlements, responsibilities just leave me alone.
I have been sober for months now, and all you care about is throwing all the things that you think is best for me.
Well I could use a drink, it's the best thing for me now, that's for sure.