Isn't it hilarious?
That the ones
You love
Like you
Sister
and
Mother
Don't care
About you?
They say,
'I love you'
but they yell at you,
'I hate you'
In the same day?
Over
a measly
pair
of earbuds?

How do I
Convey to someone
That I hate them
Without speaking?
Crying
While silent?
Trying to
BE
INDEPENDENT
LIKE
YOU
TOLD
ME
TO,
GROW UP,
MAKE A VOICE,
AND
B R E A T H E
WITHOUT YOU FAWNING OVER ME LIKE I'M SOME NEWBORN DEER IN THE WINTER, MOTHERLESS, UNLOVED, AND UNCARED FOR.

They lied
Sugar-coated lies,
Harsh lies,
Bitter,
Vengeful lies.
I'm used to it.
Used to it all.
Starting at the age of four.

I stayed up
Crying.
I'm...
Happy?
This is better
Take off the make-up
Let the world see
How
They
Treated you.

Scars
Eyebags
The whole shabang.

Be against them
Even
If
You're
The
Only
One.

But

They don't ask
Not for my side of the story
Why I did it
Or
If
I
Was
Alright.

I HATE
THIS
WORLD
AND THIS
FAMILY

WHY
DID
YOU
PUT
ME
HERE

It's my birthday on Friday.
Maybe they'll notice if I die.
Most likely they won't.
But it won't matter to them.
But it will matter to me.