too many tears have been shed;
i’m all cried out.
even the thought of leaving
used to make
my lip quiver
and my eye start to well up,
but now i don’t feel anything.
is something wrong with me?
do my feelings
even exist?
i’ve tried so many times
to make myself feel:
forcing myself to cry at movies
making myself feel angry
trying to make myself
fall for someone i will never fall for.
i want to cry,
i want to feel,
but for now
i am stuck in an endless cycle
of emptiness.