Dear Family,

I’m sorry for this to be
The last thing you hear of me
But listen to this
And this only

Don’t listen to the
Things you hear about
Me or the things
You may believe about me
Just listen to this, me, right now

I am a coward.

This way is not the way
I ever thought I would go
But I just couldn’t
Take it anymore

And I apologize for taking
The easy way out
And hurting everyone
Around me
Around you

I’m sure when I part my
Ways
There will be misery
And grief

That I know

I know there were people to
Care for me
And care about me
But very few listened

It’s not your fault,
But mine

Everything I have done
Up to this point
Has pushed me to the
Edge

I know you’ll be sad at first
But then you’ll get angry
And when you read this
You be even more
Angry with me

I told you day after day
That I was fine
And that’s my fault

I never told you how I was really
In need of someone to talk to

I used to have someone
But
You ripped them away from me

But then again, that’s
Also my fault

I wasn’t the greatest
Daughter but
You know how much I
Needed him
He was my best friend
And I ruined what we had
And in the process I also ruined
Your trust

Everywhere I went was destruction, but
It was never your fault
Because I was the one
Who always caused it

And now I sit here with
The bottle open and
40 tablets in my hand

Now listen closely because this
Part is what really matters:

I love you.
And I’m sorry for being such a coward...