3 am
mumbling and ranting
to the walls

Go over the pages
again
like anything has changed

She
        hurt
              me
Then she hurt...
no...no...no...

I
     hurt
         her
Then I hurt...
no...no...no...

But that doesn't make sense
I want to...
I have to...
beat a dead horse?

There is something wrong
How did I do that?
Its a neat trick isn't it?

No! This is important
because
stop lying

I know I did
That is why I went so far
and

Did so much
and

gave everything
you had nothing to give

I loved her and was
no you didn't

YES I DID
Whatever helps you sleep at night

You never help with anything
I don't know why I even talk
to you?

Silence fills the room
I gaze around aimlessly
in unison I say
**I need help