I see it, I jump, I almost fall apart: That is how life has been For a couple of years past. Something pulls me from the back, And something pushes me so hard. Lost in lack of equilibrium - Incapable of moving an arm. Trains rushing towards me Phasing right through me And I stand. I take a breath. I pant. I whisper to myself Because my lungs cannot function right: It will end. It will pass. The train goes And all my strength I catch Until another breaks everything I touch. From afar I see Passengers getting in and out But all this time I never entered one. I was always in the way Of all the storms of winter But not even once I could admit out loud: I am so cold tonight And I just want to fall apart.