I’m not there

I’m not there to dry your eyes
to wipe away your tears.
I’m not there to comfort you
or drive away your fears.
I’m not there to tell you it’s ok
or make you feel safe.
I’m not there for you to need me
when you’re in a bad place.
I’m not there for you to shout at
when to shout is what you need.
I’m not there for you to cry in
when you’ve had a bad dream.
I’m not there for you to talk to
when you’re feeling all alone.
I’m not there for you to wonder
if tonight I’m coming home.
I’m not there for you to love
and not there for you to hate.
I’m not there for you to moan at me
when I come home late.
I’m not there to make you smile,
I’m not there to cause you pain
or listen to my lies.
But I am there in your heart
and I’m there in your memories.
All the good times that we had
is how I hope you remember me.