I can't do it
I can't be the one you want me to be
I can't pretend like I'm okay
I can't continue to love you without it killing me
Slowly consuming me
Swallowing me whole
Draping me in a haze
I can't see
I can't hear
I can't think
The pain is too much
You have burned my heart
The sound of your name adds oxygen to the slowly burning embers
I am empty
I sink to my knees unable to breath
Through sobs and quick shallow breaths I whisper your name
The hole throbs sending piercing pain to each nerve
I curl up in a ball
The cold tiles on my back
Alone
Empty
Afraid
Heartbroken
You saved me
You burned me
You left me broken
And spit on my ashes
The pain I feel you will never know
A secret I keep from you as it consumes me
I am nothing
I am broken
I am alone.
Alone.