Hands entangled, eyes locked,
Alone amidst the sheets, we lay.
The world fell silent to us,
This was our moment.
Hardly audible, you whispered,
I love you, kissed my forehead,
And that was that.
Your eyes looked into my soul,
Searched an answer which never,
Never existed. Well,
At least the one you were looking for.
With a smile, I pulled you close to hide,
Hide my shame in you,
Hide from your expecting eyes,
For I couldn’t look at you,
But you were still waiting,
And you sill are, aren’t you?
You know don’t you? That,
Each laugh, each touch,
Each kiss and each look,
Is nothing but a cold lie?
I make you believe,
I feed you,
And with each lie,
You die slowly, harshly,
For with each lie,
You only fall for me,
Harder each time.
And so you freefall into,
The depths of pain,
Knowing that when you text,
I really hope it’s him.
Knowing that I compare,
Knowing that I remember the past,
Better than the present.
That I live more happily in my fantasy,
Than I do in reality.
That a ghost of a person saves my soul,
While you only make me feel guilty,
Killing me each time I lie
“I love you.”
Yes I’m unfaithful,
Yes my heart belongs to
A nonexistent wall,
"But I’m not going anywhere remember?"
I said, I said,
'I love you, don’t I?'