This is for every time
The words “I love you”
Were almost spoken
For every time
They died on my lips
For every time
I meant it in the silence
This is for every time
You made me feel like I was everything
For the times you looked at me
Like I was the only person in the room
For when you smiled so wide
Every first time you saw me
This is for the garden inside my body
For the flowers so deeply rooted in my heart
I have become one with them
For the blossoms inside my lungs
And the vines wrapped around them
For the butterflies in my stomach
And caterpillars in my ribcage
This is for every time you thought I was someone
For the quiet talks in the dark
For the times you told me I was worth it
For the times you told me you liked who I was
Who I am
This is for my silent who am I
This is for the night I almost took your hand in mine
For the time I looked you in the eyes
And almost asked you to kiss me
You are the only person I’ve ever really wanted to kiss me
This is for every time
You made me feel like I was nothing
For every time you walked away
For every time you looked right through me
Like I wasn’t even there
This is for every time
I wondered if you even care
Every time I notice your smile doesn’t feel real anymore
Every time I stand frozen in the shadows
Not knowing what to do
Holding my hand close to my chest
Like it was burned
This is for every time
I felt left behind
For every time
I wondered if you even like me
If you even like talking to me
Or if you just put up with me
This is for every time I thought I was a chore
This is for the love behind my eyes
For every time I looked at you like you were my everything
For every time I looked at you
For you are my everything
This is for the way my heart pounds
The way my cheeks blush
The way I genuinely smile
This is for the way I cry
For how I know you will never hold me
How you will never love me
The way I love you
This is for the way
I can never get you out of my head
This is for the way the garden in my body kills me
The way the blossoms and vines keep me from breathing
The way the roots squeeze my heart
The way the butterflies and caterpillars eat my insides
This for the way I let it
This is for the way I love you
And nothing will ever change that