As I sit inside my room and watch the time go flying by
Kinda wish that it was noon, our football practice starts at 5
I don’t like when I get hit but ‘be a man’ is what I’m told
I watch the clock go ticking by as my life begins to fold
I’m with my friends it should be fun
But butterflies are all I feel
Wearing pads out in the sun
Should not be this big deal

12 years old with anxious thoughts
What if I’m not good? What if I’m not strong?
My momma tells me I’ll be great
But bedroom mirrors lead to hate

On the town a little drunk
Gone from home I’m moving on
Leave my worries behind in childhood rooms
I was a stupid kid, but now I’m grown so **** the blues
But then I see it, there it is
A reflection of my broken face
And now I’m back to nervous times

18 years old with anxious thoughts
Are these my friends? Or am I bombed?
Don’t know what’s it real or what’s fake
There’s no avoiding this burdened fate

Outta school and onto work
First 7-5 without much earned
Sunday night and staring off
And then it hits me all at once
‘What I am doing?’ that is my thought
Life lost its meaning as my body attacks
No physical disease is leading the cause
Just mental fatigue from living so false

22 years old with anxious thoughts
Will I ever be enough? Is living really worth it?
Back inside my childhood room, 10 years gone but all’s the same
I don’t know why I gave these thoughts, there embedded in my brain

I know I’m young I still have time
To right this ship and cut my ties
Controlled by anxiety and don’t know why
Another lonely day with anxious thoughts