Oh, but don't wipe the stains off the kitchen walls yet I want to read them like braille See if I can remember them all when they were children Sticky fingers reaching for my hair when my hands were preoccupied Chocolate covered faces that kissed my cheeks when my lips were forming words much harsher than "I love you" Don't you remember, dear I never wanted those moments to skip rope out the back door Slamming the screen door shut behind them I've hit it so many times trying to find the children again Just realized today that that door is closed; I'll never follow them out into the yard again Never going back Never going back Smashed into the **** carpet of my bedroom Is a sour patch kid from years ago I suppose I could've peeled it from the decor if I'd tried sooner But I loved you I loved the way you left pieces of yourself lying around for me to find