at night I dream
I dream and remember all of the things you said
and how they never meant a **** thing
I dream of moments
the times I felt so close to you
and now we never even speak

at night I dream
I dream of happier times when I didn't have to stay up all night
crying because I can't even tolerate my own skin
I dream of portraits
in bright colours and laughter
because that's how it felt back in the day

at night I dream
I dream that the sky will open up and take me
because looking down will make me realise
how nothing really matters
I dream of someone
someone loving me but even that
feels too far fetched

at night I dream
I dream of sunsets on the horizon
and drinking so much cheap wine I can barely stand
I dream that I forgot
all of the bad things and replaced them with good
so I can keep my skin safe

at night I dream
I dream of a hurricane to take me away
to somewhere better and brighter with much more love
I dream of my future
a future that's so bright and bold
that I forget we never speak