My hands tremble as I hold a glass plate.
With a shriek I hurl the plate at the wall,
Shards flying everywhere.
Anger and pain welling up inside, overflowing
As I throw anything within reach.
Tears leave trails on my face.
Breathing heavily I stare at the chaos I’ve created.
I sink to the floor.

I’ve tried. I’ve tried so hard.
I can’t live in denial anymore.
I can’t use excuses.
I can’t give in.
I wrap my arms around myself.
Fighting to keep from sinking into misery.
Fighting to stay human.

I stand in front of a mirror, naked and vulnerable.
Years of unhealthy choices, exposed.
The scale screams as I come closer, I step on.
It gasps out a number and I step off.
I’ve reached the point where I can’t ignore myself.
To make a change and see it through.
To be human again.

I put on yoga pants and a tank top.
Running shoes are laced up.
Music playing in my ears.
I step forward into my new life.