eighteen years lived in shy monotony in my town where I couldn’t breathe
where I was born in the hospital right next to where my doctor fills my prescription for anxiety meds
where summers are the colour of the sunflower fields that I drive past on my way to work and smell like the lilacs my mother trims from our tree out back
where winters, though laughably mild, are petrichor and taste like fresh oranges
where we have a tunnel for frogs to safely cross the road and turkeys consistently block traffic and if the wind is blowing right all you can smell is the manure that gives us the reputation of ‘cow town’
lady-bird is right who would ever voluntarily move here?
all those times we sat in the patchy grass rolling down the steep hill outside of the community theatre and eating fries we moaned and complained “**** this town” “there’s nothing to do” we begged the universe for spontaneity and yet when I had to leave all I wanted to do was find excuses to stay
I guess boredom is safety, safety for my anxious mind no risks required in cow town.