Warm and fuzziness is the feeling I crave That feeling that everything is OK, with me, the world, the sun is shining, I'm out of that dank cave And there's one way to get it, even though I know even though I've been told through science I know, there are really two ways
Science isn't poetic, but it explains and you can understand it Doesn't change much of anything in how you feel as you go along I feel like I'm living through a ****** Kesha song and that is sad and just plain wrong
Men.Β Β They can give me, that seratonin high And there's nothing better, although I've looked well nigh everywhere and run down train tracks, into seedy bars, took those pills in plastic bags and ***** jars, it always comes back to that one elusive feeling that floating, I am attractive, enough and everything will be just fine And I'd drink a case of wine except I know it wouldn't take me there, just make me sick, and lie around making a rat's nest of my hair
It makes me seem desperate For the guy who is experiencing me and it I don't even have to like him He just has to turn a kind eye and off I go That's how I entangled with my X I know I didn't even like him much, but off I went and ended up married under one of those Jewish tents
So one call and I'm high And then an hour later it's over and I'm low There is only one thing I know I must take the sage advice that I've paid a high price for and that is: this feeling, to myself I can give and if I learn that I won't feel like this I can, anyone can, renew from the inside out I don't have to walk around in helpless doubt
But it's the hardest thing in the world harder than the butterfly stroke that I'd never tried to learn I wish there were drugs in some ancient urn and I'd walk a thousand miles on my knees until they were bloodied to plunge my hand in and consume that thing or I wish at least I had some book that could teach me how to get there, or at least how it would look Just be here, science says, that's all it does. It's not enough.