Am I doing this for recognition
Or did I want to remain anonymous? Thats the question that I keep on asking.
The answer..... Well.....
Like any human being given a choice between two difficult choices,
I simply want both. That is why I'm here.
I want to remain a stranger among other strangers.
Who won't give another thought as to who this Ummehani is,
Why i write something, who am I addressing.
Strangers who read and judge whats infront of them.
Either like, ignore or dislike what I've written
And then... Forget about it. Move on. Both them and myself.
Because when strangers judge,
I can give myself a reason that they don't even know me. What would they know?
Family, would read between the lines,
Try to reason,ponder and understand.
Ummehani are you sad? Is that why you've written this?
Did I do something? Am i the reason?
And then you start questioning yourself.
Am I really sad? Is that why I write?
Questions... That... Well... I don't have an answer to.
Because no, I'm not.... I'm not sad... I just wrote this... I felt it and I wrote....
There really isn't a reason behind it.... But then again why did I write this. Why does it have this lonely tune behind it?
That's why I'm here.
Strangers wont ask if I'm sad or happy...
They'll just read and move on.
I'll get both recognition and anonymity.