sick and lonely like dirt crawling up the sides of my head diseased eyes diseased heart a chest that can't move up or down, stuck in the expanse in the middle enough to breathe but not enough to live.
highs, followed by lows followed by a moment of standstill when i just stand still searching the lines on my hands for answers. - i won't find them
my bones are confused nerves twisted all together though oxygen makes everything better. i'm only aware of being lonely when i'm around you and you, and you, and you, and you, and you and everyone else. - that's why i don't want to hang around.
by myself staring at my own feet because i have no one else's to look at the sky doesn't have feet the trees still tower my friendship group is a little less than human, but a little more than aching hard they give me space to breathe, and a little spot for my own thoughts to fill and at least they'll still be there when something falls apart.