Suicide came to mind when i messed up a bunch of times
I had a knife on my chest and i still have the marks
I kept quiet for a long time because i thought no one would care
I told my boyfriend and my friends they said it’s okay to get hurt
But it’s not
They said it’s okay to cry
But it’s not
They said i shouldn't die
But i should
The things people make me feel, no one should feel
I try to ignore but it’s hard
They told me suicide isn't the way, but what IS the way ?
I always feel like i'm dead inside but i keep a smile in my face to hide the pain