I want to laugh at the funeral
I want to sing liberty songs instead of hymns and feel the relief
Feel the release
From worry
From pain
From rules

I want also to cry at the loss of the pleasures
That too would hold permit

But they were only momentary wisps
Fleeting, succulent diversions

The pain was the constant
The heartache...
The fear, unrelenting

The love was magnificent

The risk...
The taboos were the sweetest
What we got away with together!

The love was magnificent

I want to cry with laughter
I want to miss you like breath
I want no-one to replace you

The love was magnificent

(mish 2018)