i hate the green on my tongue and i dont know what im holding on for as i sit on the bench and the sun hits i still have goosebumps the cauldron hisses
im mad at myself for hurting the way i do and enjoying it i hate my passions and the things i crave i hate my subversiveness and no i do love it
i cant stay in the middle of anything and i need to get out
i cant imagine living without a whirlwind living a bathwater life not poisoning myself
oh how the hurt brings out my passion and how i feel for things i light everything on fire and i love the ash on me
i let people make stories of me and ill never tell them if they are true i will never know
what do ravens feel about the smoke in the air and collapsing lungs the natural brown i try to escape from
the whispers in the wall make my hands cover my ears
when will a chair be pulled and sat in, when will i exist with more than myself who will love me ugly and sinking into the furniture