i can't believe
the things that escape my lungs sometimes
the words that fall out

because i regret them
like i've regretted nothing before

after so long, how could i
just let them escape
haphazardly

i can't believe
what i've done

i loved you two years ago when i met you
i loved you when i hadn't seen you in months
i loved you when we kissed for the first time
i loved you when i had no choice but to
try to forget you
i loved you that night
we ended up in your bed
i loved you when i told you we needed to talk
i loved you when i told you
promised that i wouldn't

but the heart does not
keep promises very well.

i'm sorry,
i fell in love.

i'm so sorry
that it terrifies me like this.