Why I should be happy I think They always say Theres so much to live for I know At least I think I do But I still want it all to end I should be happy But I'm not I mean sometimes I am But not now not at night Not in my head or my thoughts Why cant others see it I just want to disappear Those who bully I hate them But maybe.
I hate myself I dont But I do I dont know anymore I say I'm fine But others dont ask So why answer they dont care I constantly think How much better the world and others would be without me But at least I know that I might be a good thing I mean thats what I have to say to myself each night Maybe this world just isnt the right one for me.
God wouldnt approve and thats probably the thing that keeps me alive I just want to see the world without me But without me I cant see the world Why is life such a terrible thing Filled with terrible things and terrible corrupt people Why do the dumbest things become popular But why do I feel Nothing I dont feel anything about modern culture Others watch Others laugh Others gain entertainment I watch I think Why is this funny But others are laughing So laugh a little Force a smile Say something they cant know Because if you dont do anything they will feel awkward But my forced laugh, smile, and comment make them feel awkward too Nothing I do will make anyone else happy
I may do the right thing I may do a funny thing Others watch me They ignore Someone else does the same or less People cheer or laugh or enjoy it Them feeling happy is good But my lack of ability for something must mean something I dont need to be here I have hurt so many unintentionally By doing what I thought was right Maybe my right is just wrong Maybe I'm just wrong Wrong for this world I dont know
But shouldn't I be happy I did amazing things today I play music and march and do things I enjoy But afterwards when all is done All is packed up and quiet All I feel is that I should and cant belong So why try Why do Anything Who the duck cares Clearly no one Just why Why I don't know anymore Just Why