What if today i just shut down
What if today i get so overwhelmed with my emotions that tears just involuntarily roll down my cheeks
What if today i finally gave up on myself
Not committing suicide but just giving up on life and its battles
What if i become so tired that i cant stand on my own anymore
What if i shut everyone else out
And never reply to any messages and pick up any calls
Will you look for me?
Will you still be there?
Will you still help me to get up like you said you would?
All that negative energy doesn't it scare you though?
I will not blame you , if you decide to give up on me because i would have done that to myself already
But would you be that persistent though?
Like you promised?
Or am i too much for you now?
Because who wants such a damaged soul like that right?
But if i ever get to that point
I hope you'll still be there
Whether you will or will not get through to me
I hope you'll try
because even I
I sometimes don't know what to do with myself