I'm so far from you now that life seems almost insignificant.
My only means of coping are to become aggressive and belligerent.
Pushing everyone out until I'm finally left alone to ache.
Your absence hitting me like a reoccurring and relentless earthquake.

I'm constantly reminded of the hole you left in my chest.
The faint beating of my heart finally dying and laying to rest.
I can't remember what you felt like anymore,
And the reminder runs through me like a rusty old sword.

I want the suffering to end but I honestly no longer care.
The pain won long ago and became something more than I could bare.
Part of me died when you left our little nest and home.
No part of me wants to run wild, explore, or even roam.

I think I'll just bask in the quiet darkness here alone.
I'll close my eyes to the world until I become mere stone.
Without you there's no real point or meaning to me.
I have no desire to be let out of my cage or ever again be free.