“How are you,” they ask Broken, alone, useless, unloved Confused, betrayed, fragile
“I’m Fine”
I take on people’s problems, but never my own Because then i become: Selfish, self absorbed, obsessed, egotistical How do you think I feel?
I got quieter Nights endless Blades bigger Sleeves longer Meals smaller Music crashing No one even noticed
Every day I was tormented I had fallen into a trapdoor of depression
My spirits sank
My life was a phone battery Every time I was used up People left me to sit in the dark Just until they felt the need To use me again
My friends called me their dandelion They said they could make a wish And I would make it come true And then someone finally told me That dandelions were just weeds
Weeds are useless, unwanted Just how I was No place among the beautiful flowers
All it takes is some kind of elephantine smile To hide an injured soul And they never know
How broken you really are
Depression is the incapability To develop a future
People think depression is Darkness, crying, misery Depression is the consistent feeling Of being numb
I was tired of crying, tired of yelling, tired of being... me Trying to get people to understand, and being alone Being angry, feeling crazy... Being different and feeling lost Feeling lost inside, most of all I was tired of being tired
I wanted to be… okay But there was something Inside screaming “You don’t deserve it”
I was done Done with being used, being detached, and most of all Being left in the dark…
...alone... Abandoned? By All I loved? What a pity
Then one day I realised No I am worth something To somebody somewhere I do not accept this And I refuse to give up
I am strong because I know my weaknesses I am beautiful because I am aware of my flaws I am wise because I learn from my mistakes I can love because I have felt hate and I can laugh because I have felt sadness
It’s all about finding the calm in chaos I wake up every morning To the demons I left the night before I fight them every minute of the day And that… Makes me stronger than anyone I’ve ever known