I'm six
Playing at home
Words flowing back and forth on top of my head
Taking in everything
Only understanding some
Watching with awe
As tears ran down
As hands pled

But let's pretend everything is fine
Just for a night
Let all the stars shine
Forget the darkness
Forget the mess
You're in a dream of happiness

I'm fourteen
Coming back home
Greeted by closed doors
Even more closeted pain
Bathing in chocked sobs
Sweet memories
Vanishing like foam
Laughter and cheers
Quietened by the thunderstorm
Smiles full of teeth
Washed away by heavy rain

But let's pretend everything is fine
Just for one night
Let all the stars shine
Forget the darkness
Forget the mess
You're in a dream of happiness

I'm twenty now
In what used to be home
Watching figures well known
Strangers still
Shouting
Flown insults
As it is the norm
Dulled out an octave
With every swallowed pill

It is over now
Everything is fine
From this night onward
I'll be the star that shines
Welcome the darkness
Forget the mess
My eternal dream of happiness