Is this death ..
Is this what it feels like...
To be dead inside .
This feeling is deeper than any I’ve felt before , I’m so far in , lost my way from I stepped through that door .
The pills , alcohol, drugs & my mind have all taken over ; I no longer have control & wished I was sober . I’m endlessly falling , doubt I can be saved as the music plays I stare up at the stars in a gaze .
The tears were flowing like a river but dried up after , feels like I’m crying but it doesn’t matter .
What’s worst is the voices are quiet & I can feel them just watching , stalking me as I fall , laughing as I call for help .
This feeling is deeper than any other , number than anything I’ve felt . I don’t know what to do or say or even how it should be dealt .
If this is death then I’ve died over & over ; I can’t even feel my heart beat or my mom rubbing my shoulder .
Now times frozen & everything’s quiet but in my mind is a raging riot , in my mind a battle between life or death . If you feel this way then you’d know how much of life’s wreck I am .