I woke up and I cried today / don't know what the **** is wrong with me inside today / I'm tired and I don't want self pity / but what the **** am I supposed to do when I look around and all I see is these walls closer to me / wait a minute maybe I gotta breathe / now I'm laughing feeling a different speed / now I'm smiling / but then it easily leaves with this feeling inside of I just don't want to be me! Hi world I'm just a regular guy / hi world I'm just playing my role / taking my time / cause this little life of mine is written so I can't do anything about it till I ******* Die! How can I make these thoughts end? How can I move on / when I still feel you inside and you're just there / while I'm here and this wall is in the middle / but you won't let me break that **** in / All a lone since birth naw / that's not the truth / my grandma did what she could so I'd be all good / friends had many but I had to lose / wrong choices that's what happens too / when you feel you're on top of the world but really you just wanna fall / hello today / goodbye tomorrow / that's a ******* line / of that gun powder / going through my blood stream like you'll be just fine / but I still see this little light of mine / she was born and I had to live longer / I had to love stronger / I, no matter how I felt inside had to try / now years they fly and to the moon I wanna go / Frank Sinatra was there so it had to be cold / I've lost hope and I have so much anger, love, and depression doesn't seem to understand that she ain't the answer / I take a pill that **** calms me down / but that bandaid won't stop any feelings / how? Did I grow up to be this way? I don't know but I gotta live this way / walk this way / put my head up and let my heart beat this way.