what respect do i owe to my elders if they cannot afford me any? who i am is not a choice but to do right by me, as another human being, is. i do not pretend to know the horrors of lives that i have not lived but i have lived my horrors daily, in the face of ignorance and erasure already, at twenty-three. do not expect me to stay silent when it is my existence on the table. those days are over.