Images growing more sharp
with everything that surrounds me
noticing what I hear
sounds of pain being replaced
with a sense of euphoria
or a jolt of energy

For what has been done to you
you do this to yourself
not seeing what you have done to me
what you've done to your children

I'm grateful for your love
but you still gave me a life
a child would not want to take
if only there were a choice
for the better you would have made

Leaving my brother with me
in places we've never been
with people we never met
we could have been taken away

While you celebrate addiction
with the corrosion of your life
we were left behind
worried you'd never come back

No matter what
we loved you to no end
wanting to be there for you
because among all those people
there was not one true friend

If I knew then what I know now
I would have begged you to stop
no more pain
no more going away
just your love

Maybe if I did
you'd still be here...
if there was a hell after your death
maybe you would know
because you left us there

Ever since we've been crawling out
and dragged back in
it wears us down
so we are never the same again