You told me you cared
You passed me those words like crushed berries in palm
Only to force them down my throat
And as the acid taste dissolved my sense of understanding
I found out they were poison
Yet they were already in my system
Making my heart beat rapidly and hands clammy whenever you are around
And now I stand, slumped
Water spilling over my shoulders as I try to sterilize my worn frame that you touched
But didn’t ever really touch
And the bile rises in my throat as my body tries to get rid of the toxicity you subtly forced into it
But this downpour will never match the deluge that has fallen from my eyes over the years
The rainfall that escaped my temple, my sanctuary
Because of you and your lovely words
Your intoxicating voice
Your breathtaking smile
So now as I try to drown the thought of you in a bottle of stolen *****
All I can think about are the drowsy nights we spent together
Sipping on the same substance
And now I can do nothing without being reminded of you.