Dropping, hitting, clunking,
Like a stone falling into the stomach.
All day long, it jumps and sinks.
Your indifference stings
Worse than my blisters,
And worse than your hate.
And like a child,
I cling to your side
And look in your eyes.
I am searching for love,
And acceptance,
But all I see is a blur.
All you show me
Is your disgust,
And all I feel is sorrow.
Why do I remain attached?
Love is the lock
To these gagging binds.
Everything I do is gross to you.
My whole existence
is gross to you.
"Mostly."