Have I fallen to this extent

Has this consumed me too far
This wasn’t my intent
I just wanted to show you the brightest stars
But I broke your heart
And now mine feels like it has too

I wanted to escape
This world, this reality
This reality in which we can’t be together anymore

I’ve been keeping score
Of all my sins, all my failings, all the things I did
I don’t need to write them, the memories are vivid,
And devastating
They torment me every day

I miss you in every single way
The way you smiled, the way you sang and the way you teased
The way you would sulk when you weren’t really pleased
The way you shined, the way you walked, the way you made my heart stop

Tis a cruel thing memory
No escape, no release
And so I try and forget
In any way I can
I drink, I travel and I wait
For those times to fade

Wounds of the flesh heal over time,
But heartbreak only gets worse

Am I shackled by my own chains?
Do you feel the same way?

Do we both regret that time gone past
and that
The spaces between us have never seemed so vast


I wait for a sign,
A sign that you could again
be mine