i paint my toenails blue
so that when i look down
when i let my head fall
i can see
how sad the color is
and maybe, i will decide
that it doesn't look good on me
and i'll smile
so that my insides won't be
permanently dyed blue
because God forbid i be ugly
on the inside
especially since i am so see through
and every time
the paint wears
i find a darker shade
and everytime
i find a way not to care
i remove it
or let it fade
into a lighter blue
into a happier blue
something that will be pleasing
something that will please
you